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Monday, November 15, 2021

The Gift of Inspiration



"Art is not what you see, it's what you make others see."
-Edgar Degas

 This story was written yesterday.  I am a homeless man, and I slept in a parking lot last night, after writing this.  You never know what potential is lying hidden in the people you see each day...


The Gift of Inspiration

"There's a story that has been lost to time," the old man doing chalk drawings on the sidewalk said.  He went on, I just listened, as he drew a big yellow box, with a red ribbon, with his chalk.  "It's the best gift of all in here," he continued, "the gift of inspiration."

The chalk artist talked as he continued to draw...

"It happened back in the days of old, medieval times when knights and castles and walled cities were the way of things.  A stranger walked through the gates of a city one afternoon, he had only a small satchel, an odd bag over his shoulder, and a sleeping roll of blankets was tied to a strap slung over the other shoulder.  He stopped in the city center, and bought some food from the merchants there."

"He began to talk to the people of the city, and told them he had traveled far and wide, and had seen many things.  A few people were fascinated by his stories.  One thing led to another, and he was invited to the king's court that night, by a nobleman.  The stranger accepted, and met the nobleman later, and was escorted to the dinner.  By the end of the meal itself, before the dancing commenced, the nobleman began to feel a bit uneasy.  It was customary in that city to offer a gift to the king, as a token of appreciation for the privilege of dining in the great hall.  The nobleman pulled the stranger aside, and told him of the custom, offering to have a servant go to his house and find a suitable gift.  The stranger simply said, 'Don't worry, I have something to give.'"  

"As the king and queen took to their thrones, and the fine people of the city offered lavish gifts of silks, spices, gold, and other treasures, the stranger finally was presented to the king.  'Your majesty, I am a humble traveler, I have been to many lands, and I bring you something no other king even knows exists.' The stranger reached into his satchel and pulled out a small earthenware jar.  'In a land, far, far to the East, on an island only a few have set foot upon, there lives a lone wizard.  Having heard of this wise one, I traveled to his island, and spent many days searching for the cave he calls home.  I finally found him, and spent many weeks learning from him.'"

"'When it came time for me to leave, the wizard gave me this jar.  He told me that I would find the city that was ready for the greatest of all gifts.  I believe I have found that city, your majesty, and it is your city the wise wizard spoke of.  You see, in this jar is a fine dust,  like very fine sand, which the wizard spent many many years creating.  This magic dust... is the gift of inspiration itself.'"

The chalk artist finished drawing the big yellow box with a red ribbon, and he began to draw a huge castle, in the middle of a walled city.  Without looking up, he continued his story.

"The king looked dubious, but intrigued.  'The wizard told me that when I found the right city, which I would know in my heart, that I was to sprinkle a tiny bit of this magic dust, on the head of each of its residents, with each new moon, such as we have tonight.  The wizard said the dust would inspire the people of that town to new ideas, to create works of art, new delicacies to be eaten, and new forms of music and dance, incredible plays will be performed, and great architecture will arise, and other crafts such as the world has never seen.  This gift of inspiration would make the city the most prosperous in the land.'"

"'I am a humble traveler, your majesty, I have little in physical goods to offer, but I can offer your city this gift of inspiration, if you will accept it.'  The king did not think long, and quickly ordered his subjects to form a line to have the odd stranger administer a pinch of dust onto the head of each person.  Then the drinking and dancing began, and first the king and queen, and then the others, talked with the mysterious stranger, listening to his tales of far off places, of strange people and odd customs.  Before long a few people began sharing ideas that had long been kept to themselves." 

"The next day, after hearing several nobles felt "quite inspired," the king had all the townsfolk line up in the city square, and had the stranger tell of the magic dust, and sprinkle a pinch on each person, even the children.  The stranger was given a house to live in, and the job of wandering the city to see how the inspiration was taking hold.  He began to talk to the people of the town every day, listening to new ideas of all kinds, and encouraging them, helping them gather supplies, or begin a project they'd imagined long before, but never had the nerve to try.  A new kind of energy, not one that can be seen, but can definitely be felt and experienced, arose in the city."

"It began the second day when a woman brought a new cake to the town square, a flavor she had never baked before, and with exquisitely decorated icing.  Several townspeople tried it, marveled at the new taste, and went home to try new ideas of their own.  By the time the next new moon came around, many new sweets, a couple of new beers, and several new stews had been created.  The tanner had crafted some amazing bags of leather, finely tooled designs upon them, designs he'd thought of years before.  Much to the surprise of everyone, the town mortician, known mostly for his very quiet demeanor, and for carving tombstones and preparing the dead for funerals, began to carve into the stone of the city's outer wall.  In a month, in the time not devoted to his normal duties, he had carved most of a relief of the city's founding king on a horse.  The carving was incredible in its detail and nuance, and was on the wall next to the city's gate.  Travelers and townsfolk alike remarked at its beauty."

The old man with the chalk expertly drew a relief of a mounted rider, on the wall of the city he was drawing on the sidewalk in front of me.  Still never looking up, he continued his story.

"On the evening of the second new moon, the king held a great party for the nobles, and again the mysterious traveler was invited.  The king lifted his bejeweled cup and spoke, 'A toast, to our new friend and hopefully longtime resident, the great traveler, who has been drawn to our fine city to bestow the great gift of inspiration itself.'  Cups rose and clinked around the great hall.  Sips were taken.  The king told of new delicacies he had tried, of his pleasure seeing the great carving on the city wall, and the new works of beauty the city's craftsmen and women had created.  The king ordered the noblemen and noblewomen to line up once again, to receive a pinch of the magic dust on the top of their heads from the jar the mysterious stranger held, and kept safe in his new home.  The next day, again, the king and his court had the townspeople line up in the town square, even the children, to receive a pinch of the magic dust upon their heads by the traveler."

"That month two new cheeses of exquisite flavor were created by the cheese maker, and sweet rolls, and more leather works, and a fine sword by the blacksmith.  The carvings by the quiet mortician continued on the outer wall.  More people had more ideas, and shared them with others, and began to encourage each other.  The king and queen, their court, and all the townspeople still managed their to do their normal duties.   But each found time to do other, more creative activities, as well.  The mysterious traveler was now a cherished friend to all, and wandered the town each day, lending a helping hand here and there, encouraging those trying one new thing or another, and laughing, eating, and drinking with the townspeople."

"A few days later, a wagon drawn by two horses entered the city gates.  It was the wide ranging home to a traveling merchant who came to the area every two or three months.  He parked his wagon, and, with his wife, walked into the town square to find the local craftspeople he had known for many years.  He immediately noticed something was different.  The people seemed more friendly, and their was more laughter in the air and less bitterness.  As he wandered the local shops, he was amazed by all the new items, beautiful items, wonderful beers, and tasty new treats, the town had to offer.  A small stage had been erected in the town square, for performing plays and music.  The king had ordered the people not to talk of the precious gift of inspiration, for their city was the chosen one, and they wanted to keep it that way.  So the craftspeople of the own simply said, "Oh, I had this idea for a long time, and just decided to give it a try," when asked about a new creation. The wandering merchant bought and traded many wonderful things to carry with him and sell in other towns.  A couple weeks later, the same thing happened with another of the wandering merchants of the region."

"And so it went, day after day, week after week, month after month, in the walled city that once seemed no different than any of the other walled cities throughout the land.  But bit by bit, traveler by traveler, word began to spread about the one city with the carving on its protective wall, and the wonderful and interesting things the people of that city produced.  People from cities close by began to travel there more often, to listen to the music, to buy the delicacies, and to trade.  As time passed, people from across the region, then people from across the country visited the city with the growing stone carving and the exquisite works of crafts and arts and culinary delights.  Within a few years, even back in those times when people and news traveled rather slow, people from far away lands sought out the city, now famous in many, many lands for its creativity and great works.  The city prospered in good times and in bad, and people far and wide wondered what its great secret was.  That secret, of course, was that on each new moon, each new beginning of that cycle in the night sky, the mysterious traveler sprinkled a tiny bit of dust on the top of the head of each of the townspeople, even all the children.  He bestowed on them the concoction of the great wizard, on that small island, far away.  The traveler gave them inspiration."

The old man doing the chalk drawing on the sidewalk had drawn the walled city, with many towers, next to his chalk drawing of the big yellow box, wrapped with a red ribbon.  The detail in the quickly drawn picture was amazing.  Without raising his head, his story continued.

"In time the walled city grew to be the dominant city in the whole region.  The city grew.  The great outer wall, now completely covered with incredible relief sculptures, was expanded.  Brave and incredible new architecture was built in the new area, and huge beautiful gardens were planted and tended to.  The most talented people from many other lands flocked to the city, to learn from its people, now masters of many types of art and craft, and always innovators of new things.  Each new person was taken aside, and told quietly about the mysterious stranger, and asked to keep the magic dust, the gift of inspiration, quiet.  Since the small earthenware jar holding the gift of inspiration was a great secret, eventually everyone knew about it.  The magic dust became a legend, and like most legends that travel from their source, it wasn't believed, it became a joke to tell in other cities.  The joke protected the small jar that never seemed to run out of magic dust."

"The king of the city, a sturdy and noble middle aged man when the mysterious traveler first arrived, grew old as his city expanded and flourished.  Some thirty years after the arrival of the traveler, the now old and wise king grew ill.  The townspeople new his time as there king was nearing an end.  One night, knowing he had only a few days of breath left in him, the king called for the mysterious traveler, now and old friend and counselor, to visit him.  The king told his servants to leave them alone to talk."

"The weak king smiled, 'My city has flourished since your arrival, my friend, and I am very grateful for that.'  The traveler nodded.  'My days are now few, and I must ask you the question I have wished to ask all these years.  What is the magic dust, the gift of inspiration, actually made of?'  The traveler smiled, and sat on the chair next to the king's bed.

"The traveler began, 'As a young man, I got in a lot of trouble.  I lived on a small farm outside a walled town, much like any other.  I was a precocious child with far too much energy, and lots of ideas I thought were wonderful.  But no one wanted to hear them.  No one encouraged me to try out my ideas.  In fact family and friends alike told me to shut up, keep my ideas to myself, and do what I was told, and to do no more than I was told.  They were not bad people, but people raised to work hard, and to focus on the simple things, and to live as their ancestors had lived.  They did not like new ideas, they liked things to remain they way they were."

"But something inside of me told me there must be more to life.  I sensed there must be some reason I had all these ideas.  In my little bit of free time from doing my chores, I went to a bend in the nearby river, where there was a big sandbar, and a fallen tree on the edge of the sandbar.  I  sat there and I dreamed of going to a place, a place I imagined was far, far away, a place where ideas were welcomed and appreciated.  A place where new things were tried, and great things were created.  I knew that place must exist somewhere."

"In those years as a growing child, yearning to roam far beyond my town's walls, I found myself drawn to the merchants, the roaming minstrels, and the travelers of all kinds, telling tales of other places, different people, and far off lands.  Finally, shortly after my 14th birthday, I packed a few things, and I ran away from my town.  I set out to find that far off land I dreamed of, that land where new ideas were welcomed, and innovation was an everyday thing.  I sought that place with great buildings, and works of art, and beautiful music, and even more beautiful women dancing each night."

"But I was a young man with no money, so I began to work for a traveling merchant, and then another, and then another.  With him and his wife, I traveled from town to town, city to city, and began to meet many people.  One day we came to a great port city, and I saw a huge ship in the harbor, like nothing I had every seen before.  I asked one of the workers about the great ship, and in talking with him, he told me the captain needed a new cabin boy.  So I left the merchant life, and I took to the seas, working under a wise old salt, a great ship captain, and I traveled the world."

"In each port, I went ashore with the older men, and I drank ale and danced with women, and learned different customs and different languages.  I learned the ways of the sailors, and I moved up in jobs on the crew of the ship.  I worked my way around the world as a sailor.  Some told me I might make a great captain some day.  But in my heart, I knew I was looking for that one place.  I was looking for that place where ideas flowed like wine at a wedding party, and everyone did great and wonderful things as a matter of course."

The old man with the chalk, drawing on the wide city sidewalk in front of me, deftly drew a great three masted sailing ship.  Without looking up, he continued his story.

"The stranger continued telling the king his story.  'But I never found that place.  I saw great buildings, fine paintings, sculptures created by master artists.  I ate great foods at times, and meager sea rations at others.  I worked hard, always ready to head up to the crow's nest of the ship, so I would be the first to see the place I dreamed of as a child.  But the more lands I visited, the more I realized that people are nearly the same everywhere.  They look a bit different, they eat different foods, and have different cultures.  But they all sound nearly they same when they laugh, they all look much the same when dancing, and tell very similar stories over a pint of ale.  The all make similar gibberish when playing with a small baby.  The all ache much the same over a broken heart, or grieve the same over a lost loved one.'"

"'I also noticed, everywhere I went, the people all had ideas that they told me, a stranger, a traveler, but were afraid to tell their family and friends.  Many of these ideas were really good ones, but they were afraid to fail, afraid to look like a fool around the people they grew up with.  Like me, as a child, everyone had good ideas they were afraid to try.  One night, thinking about this common thing I'd noticed in people around the world, I bought a small earthenware jar from a street merchant, it was filled with a sweet custard that was baked into a velvety crust in the jar.  I walked with my jar out along the waterfront, to a quiet, secluded beach, made of the most fine sand I'd ever seen.  As I sat on the beach, watching the sun slowly drop towards the horizon, a local craftsman wandered by, collecting pieces of driftwood and shells.  I'd seen his work, he made these amazing little sculptures of mythical creatures, dragons and sea serpents, in the marketplace.  Throughout that city, I saw his works on shelves and in window ledges.  He was a favorite artist of the city, but I had seen his creations in other cities, and even on the desk of the great sea captain I first sailed with.  Everyone talked about how he took ordinary objects, a piece of old fishing net, a branch from some driftwood, a bit of seashell, and a few other cast off objects, and made something incredibly beautiful out of those things."

"'As he walked by, I asked him how he learned to make his amazing little sculptures.  The man smiled, he sat down on the beach beside me, as the sun sank a bit above the horizon.  He told me that his uncle gave him a small knife as a kid, and taught him how to whittle little figures out of scraps of wood.  So he began to whittle in all of his spare time.  A couple of years later, still a very young boy, there was a girl he had a crush on who got very ill.  He'd always been afraid to tell her how he felt.  The word got around that she might die.  Not knowing what else to do, he found a scrap of wood, and he began to carve a dove out of it, the little girl's favorite bird.  He found some scraps of cloth, a bit of wax, and other odds and ends, and melted the wax, and added on here and there, and he made her a dove.  Then, sheepishly, he went to her house, into her room, where the family was gathered around, and he silently handed her his homemade dove.  The sculptor said her eyes lit up, and she smiled a glowing smile.  It was the first time she'd smiled in days.  He said he felt a feeling, a true, good, incredible feeling, that he'd never know before.  The girl weakly waved him towards her, and gave him a kiss on the cheek.  The sculptor's eyes teared up as he told me.'"

The old man with the chalk outlined a beautiful dove with a few masterful strokes, and then set to color it in.  Eyes still to his work, continued his story.

"'What happened then?' The traveler asked the sculptor.  The sculptor took a breath, trying to hold back his tears, 'Then she took a shallow, coughing breath, and she died.  She died smiling, holding my dove.  I started crying, and I ran from the room,' the sculptor said.  After a couple of minutes, still crying outside the house, I felt a soft hand on my shoulder.  I turned to see the girl's grandmother.  She said, "I know you liked her for quite a while, why did you never tell her, or give her a gift before now?"  The sculptor said, "I was afraid.  I was afraid she would laugh at me, or make fun of me, or tell me to never talk to her again."  The grandmother continued, "What you did for my sick granddaughter was wonderful, and you little dove you made was beautiful.  You should never feel bad for creating a gift to help someone.  That was the first time she's smiled in many days."  The grandmother grabbed his chin, pulled his face to look at hers, and said, "From now on, whenever you feel the need to make something beautiful, for any reason, I give you permission to go ahead and do it, to go ahead and make it, whatever it is.  My granddaughter has passed on, but her spirit, and that smile, will be with you always.  I think you will go on to make many other people smile with the things you create."   The sculptor could no longer hold back the tears, they streamed down his cheeks.  "The girl's grandmother gave me permission to make the things I think need to be made, and I've been making them ever since."  He got up, picked up his driftwood and shells, and walked off down the beach, wiping his eyes.'"

"The traveler continued his story to the king.  'At that moment, the setting sun just touched the horizon, and suddenly I knew why I never found the city where new thoughts and ideas were welcomed, and where everyone made incredible things.  I never found that city,' the mysterious traveler told the king, 'because in every town and city everywhere, there were people with ideas, but most of them were afraid to try.  No one ever gave them permission.  I realized it was the same everywhere.'"

"The traveler continued.  'I wiped my eyes and watched the most beautiful sunset, sitting on an incredible beach of fine sand, eating a rich, custard dish, in my little earthenware jar.  I didn't think life could be much more pleasurable than that moment.  It was inspiring.  I knew what I must do.  I washed out my jar when I was done eating, and I filled it with the fine sand from the beach that inspired me.  I got hired on the next ship leaving the port.  I began traveling again.  Eventually I made my way here.'"

"The mysterious traveler turned to the king.  The king smiled, and in a weak voice, he spoke, 'I had a feeling there was no wizard, but the magic you created with that sand and your little jar, it worked. My city... our city... has thrived, I thank you for that."  The king reached out and took the traveler's hand and shook it in deep appreciation.  They were both silent for a few moments."

The old man drawing with the chalk began to draw a fire, and I thought maybe he was drawing the fire of creative energy itself.  Still facing his work, he continued his story

"Then the king spoke again.  "I have another question, one that's bothered me these many years.  How is it that your little jar never ran out of the sand from that beach that inspired you?"  The traveler got up, and walked to the window, the kings room was high in the castle, and looked out over the city, and the lands beyond the wall.  The traveler looked out the window for a moment, then he spoke, 'There's a small beach, a sandbar really, about a mile down the river, I've been going there to sit and think now and then, since I came here.  It's quiet and beautiful, and it reminds me of that beach far away, where I talked to the sculptor.  When the sand in the jar got a little bit low, I picked up a handful on the sandbar by the river, put it in my pocket, and filled the jar back up when no one was looking, so it never ran out.'"

"'You fooled me and my people for thirty years now,' the king laughed.  'I didn't really fool them,' the traveler said, still looking out the window, towards the sandbar down the river, 'I simply told them an engaging story, and I gave them permission to be who they had always been capable of being, who they always wanted to be, that's all.'  'What wonderful magic,' the king laughed, 'It is you who is reallt the great wizard.  Again, I thank you.'  The traveler turned towards his friend, the king, and nodded.'"

"There was a small farm right by that sandbar on the river,' the king began again, "long, long ago, when I was a young prince, and my father was king.'  I knew the farmer well, he had a peach tree there that seemed to grow the juiciest peaches anywhere, and he always gave me plenty when they were in season.'  The traveler continued to stare out the river as the king spoke.  'The farmer was a good man, I talked to him often when he came to town, when had more time for such things.  One night, during a fierce thunderstorm, a bolt of lightning struck the big, old oak tree outside his cottage, and the tree fell on the house, catching it on fire.  It burned all night.  Since the farm was set apart from the others, we didn't realize what happened until a hunter walked by the next morning, and found the smoldering ruins.  The house burned to the ground in an intense fire.  The man and his wife were both inside, but we found very little of them.  The farmer had a young boy, too, about 12 years old.  He must have completely burned up in the fire, we found no trace of him.  It was a terrible tragedy.  For years afterwards, I would go to that place when the peach tree was full of ripe fruit, and I would say a prayer for that farmer.'"

The mysterious traveler smiled, and turned back towards the king.  He walked across the room to the bedside, and once again sat in the chair.  'Yes, that was a terrible tragedy.  The boy was 14, by the way, not 12, and he didn't die in the fire.  I ran away.  There was something I needed to find.  When I finally found it, I came back home and shared it.'  The king's mouth dropped open in surprise, and then he smiled.  The mysterious traveler smiled back."

The man doing the chalk drawing on the city sidewalk stopped drawing, finishing his drawing of the huge castle, the great walled city, and the cottage on fire, exactly when his story finished.  He turned, looked up to me and smiled.  "You, like everyone, have ideas you think need to become reality.  You have my permission, go make them happen."

-Steve Emig
The White Bear
8/10/2019

This basic story, in one form or another, has been in my head for 20 years or so.  The time finally came to write it down. Creativity is like that.  The best works have a way of coming into existence just when they are most needed.  We don't really create the art.  We artists and writers are really a sort of midwives, we shepherd the work from the unseen world into the tangible world, where it can be shared.

Poem- Life: What Will You Do?

Life: What Will You Do?

Chances are
You won't fossilize
Your skull will last a while
After your meat puppet dies
The flesh ain't you
It never was
The bones aren't either
They're just borrowed dust
You're a piece 
Of God's big bang
Not the cosmic one
That's another thing
The Great One splintered
Into billions of shards
One is your soul
That let down its guard
In a cosmic backwater
Near a minor star
You swooped down
Free will to explore
Among the creatures
You ducked and wove
Then, with a leap of faith
You dove
Two legged creatures
Scrambling 'round
Turned into humans
As we dove down
Splinter of light 
In human flesh
What will you do
While you're Earth's guest?

-The White Bear

Written early last June, directly from my head onto a big, freehand drawing of a skull colored with all kinds of colors.  I wrote this after getting into a lot of talks about Edgar Cayce's readings, the late "Sleeping Prophet," and the most documented psychic in history. 

 

Friday, November 12, 2021

There's no such thing as "writer's block"- Seth Godin explains

 

Seth Godin is a great speaker, entrepreneur, marketer, and has written over 20 books.  He's written more blog posts than I have (a mere 2,400 or so for me), he's well over 7,000 posts, according to Google.  Just type "Seth" into Google search, and it comes up.  Every day he writes a post, and I don't read near enough of them, I'll be honest.  In this clip from London Real, he explains where the idea of "writer's block" comes from, and why it doesn't really exist.  It's a 3 1/2 minute video, watch it.  

I haven't written very much about writing, and many of you reading this probably haven't seen my other blogs.  I came to realize that I'm a writer by first getting into the brand new sport of BMX freestyle in 1983-84.  I was a high school kid in Boise, Idaho, my family lived in a trailer park outside of town for a year, to save money to buy a house.  There were a bunch of teenage guys there, and only 3 or 4 teenage girls, so there wasn't much to do.  We started riding our BMX bikes every evening, as it cooled down, on some little jumps a motorcycle rider had made.  Over a few months, BMX became our thing.  

I raced for about a year, but found the new activity of trick riding, or "freestyle" side of BMX much more interesting.  The first flatland and ramp contest ever was held in the summer of 1984, in Venice Beach, California.  My friend Jay Bickel's parents put on the first BMX freestyle contest in Boise shortly after.  A year later my family moved to San Jose, California.  I knew there were a handful of pro freestylers, and several good amateurs, in the San Francisco Bay Area, so I started publishing a zine about freestyle to meet them.  It worked, and by the summer of 1986, my Xerox zine landed me a job at BMX Action and FREESTYLIN' magazines.  I didn't think of myself as a writer, but I was beginning to have fun with writing.  Yet, at 20 years old, and with no college experience at all, I was proofreading two magazines. 

I only lasted a few months at the magazines, I just wasn't the right fit for that business.  I became the newsletter editor/photographer for the American Freestyle Association newsletter after that, and suddenly had 8 to 16 pages to fill every month.  I began to realize I was a writer, though I was still dreaming of becoming a pro freestyler.  That didn't happen, but writing zines, and self-publishing did stick.  I contributed to other magazines for a bit.  Much later in 2008, while out of work, I began blogging.  Like I mentioned above, after 12 years, I've written over 2,400 blog posts, across more than 25 blogs, and managed to draw around 440,000 total page views, (this post details those blogs).  I still haven't managed to write a "real" print book, but I wrote a 250+ page ebook about BMX, and self-published it last winter, selling a few dozen copies. Hopefully there's a real book in my future, or two, or twelve.

While I'm light years away from being a Seth Godin, or any other top writer you can name, I have spent thousands of hours putting pen to paper, and fingers to keyboards.  Here are a few of my own thoughts on writer's block.

One: If you can't find anything to write on the project you're doing, and you feel that you have writer's block, put that project aside.  Get an actual pen or pencil, and paper, and just start writing about all the things that piss you off.  Don't worry about grammar or spelling, this isn't to publish.  It's also not an "exercise."  Just vent, on paper.  Get it out, whatever "it" is that's bothering you.  When you come up for air, and take a break, 3 or 4 hours later, you'll feel better.  It's also very likely that you may have an idea or two for that project you couldn't find the words for earlier.  

Two: Get up, leave the pen and paper, computer, or whatever you write on.  Go take a walk.  Then try again.  Sounds lame, but it can really work sometimes.  Julia Cameron, who wrote The Artist's Way (and other books), is real big on this idea. 

Three:  Have 3 or 4 projects going at once.  Let's say you are focused on writing a novel.  Cool.  But maybe you do a blog as well, on a totally different subject.  Or do a blog, like this one, to help promote you and your writing.  Maybe you also want to write a few poems now and then, or short stories.  Have a file of those, either printed physical file, or on your phone or computer.  Maybe you also want to just have an "idea" list, where you jot down those random ideas, and a few sentences about each one, that you might do later, or that may be part of one of your current projects.  

Then, when you sit down to write the next part of your novel, and it's just not happening, try something else.  You may think you have "Writer's Block," or something.  You're just drawing a blank.  Jump to another project.  Write a goofy, funny poem about that weird guy who bugs you at work.  Or jot down a few ideas for something totally different.  Try a short story for a bit.  Or write a blog post about that funny thing your dog did yesterday.  Just write something.  No pressure, no drama, just have a little fun writing on another topic for a bit.  Then go back and see if the next bit of the novel is ready to get typed up, or jotted down. 

This is actually something I learned from BMX freestyle.  In my day, we'd go out and ride every night often flatland riding, other times at a ramp, or street riding.  Sometimes it would be just me in a parking lot.  Sometimes I'd ride with a few other guys.  We'd practice our older tricks over and over.  We'd also try to work out our new tricks.  It was usually the new tricks we'd get stuck on.  We'd get so focused, so determined, that all the fun drained out of it, and we'd psych ourselves out. Some nights that new trick just wouldn't happen.  So the go to move was to stop trying that new trick, and just go do a trick we could to every time.  Do a trick we had totally dialed, something we could do in our sleep.  That would usually got us out of the frustration and pissed off mode (the "blocked" part), then we'd try the new trick again.  Most times, we'd make progress. 

It's a head trick really.  Doing that changes your mental state, and that applies to writing or other creative work as well as doing tricks on a bike.  As creative people (freestyle, and other action sports are creative, as well), we put too much pressure on ourselves to do some things, the "important" pieces of writing.  We tie ourselves up in knots, and basically shut off the fun, the "play" aspect, and the flow of creativity.  So if you go off for a bit and to something "easy," something that "doesn't matter," the stress fades.  You open back up again, begin to have fun with the process, and the creativity starts flowing again. 

Once you've calmed down, mentally, you can usually make progress on the "important" piece of writing, the one that felt blocked.  That's one reason I have several blogs at the moment.  I burned out on writing my BMX stories, and I have 3 or 4 other themes I want to write about these days.  I sit down every day, and one will seem like the most interesting at the time, so that's what I write.  I write enough that I manage 1 to 4 blog posts a week, or more, on each blog.  Bouncing back and forth between them helps keep it fresh.  Generally, I don't recommend having 4 blogs, like me, I'm just going in several directions these days.  But having a few different files on your hard drive, or on paper, where you can write completely different things, can help when one project just doesn't want to happen.  Those other files may add up someday, and become a whole new project, without you really trying. 

So those are my personal thoughts on "writer's block."  Like Seth, I don't think it's a real thing.  But there are definitely times when this idea or that one just isn't happening.  So try something else for a bit.  Then go back.  Most important, just keep writing something.  Like Seth says in the video above, if you do enough "bad" writing, some good stuff will come through, at some point.   

I'm literally sitting at the library right now, with pieces of a zine next to me.  My computer couldn't log into the wifi for some reason this morning.  So I started laying out the zine I'm working on, as I rebooted this, and checked that, until I got the wifi issue worked out.  Otherwise I probably would have wanted to smash my laptop against the wall, frustrated over the wifi problem.  That doesn't go over well in libraries, and is hard on laptops, so I worked on my zine a bit, and then came back to this blog post, after getting the wifi figured out.  So I actually do use these ideas above, that's part of how I get a lot of content created.  

Alright, go have some FUN writing something now.

Monday, November 8, 2021

New memes... 11/8/2021

A quote that popped in my head today, about writing and blogging.  So much of what I write/blog about it just to get people to stop and take a look at where things are headed.  This is sized for a Pinterest post, but will work on Twitter and Facebook.  #steveemigmemes

 Our world is so nuts right now, this is considered subversive by a lot of people.  It's a weird world. 

Saturday, October 30, 2021

Halloween story: Shadow the big black Mystery cat and the red coyote

This crazy looking photo is one I took, minutes after I first saw Shadow, the Mystery Cat, late one night, in the southeast part of the San Fernando Valley.  This isn't Shadow, this is a weird photo of the coyote it was fighting, which I now call the "red coyote." #steveemigphotos

I've been in and out of homelessness over the last 20 years, and I managed to do that without using drugs or alcohol.  I wound up a taxi driver living in my cab for the first time in 1999, and have been struggling with making a decent living ever since.  That struggle is a whole series of stories in itself, which I won't get into.

In these years of homelessness, I've seen a lot of wildlife, while living in my taxi, and driving people around late at night, in both California and North Carolina.  In the 5 or so years I've been actually homeless and living in the woods or on the streets, I saw a bunch more.  Many of the critters I've run into are those you'd expect: raccoons, opossums, deer, skunks, snakes, lizards, tortoises, rats, birds, and lots and lots of bugs and spiders.  You want to have a scary Halloween, spend a night on the streets near a dumpster in downtown L.A., there really are rats as big as small cats.  I even had a pencil sized rat snake show up inside my tent in North Carolina.  Not the way you want your morning to start.  

But I've also run into other animals, ones you don't really think of when you think of homeless people.  I've seen coyotes dozens of times, the last encounter with one was four feet away when I poked my head out of my sleeping bag.  That was a couple of weeks ago.  I've had a mouse run up the leg of my shorts while sleeping a couple of times.  I've seen wild turkeys (in NC), foxes, great horned owls, a barn owl, burrowing owls, herons and egrets, a green winged teal (Google that one, they're beautiful birds), many lesser known species of birds, and I almost stepped on a 7-8 foot long python in Orange County.  I'm pretty sure that was a pet someone let go.  I've seen a bobcat in broad daylight, and it stopped, giving a me a good look at it while broadside.  I've had three, maybe four, interactions with wild mountain lions while homeless.  They were young ones, about the size of a German Shepherd.  Obviously, they chose not to eat me, for which I'm grateful.  And if you 're really bored sometime, ask me about how I saved the city of Richmond, Virginia from a nutria infestation.  What's a nutria?  Imagine a huge, long legged water rat the size of a schnauzer.  That's about what a nutria is.

This is the "red coyote," as I call it.  This is a better view of the same coyote that's in the "werewolf" meme above.  It came back through about dawn, and I got this shot.  It had much shorter hair than the other coyotes I've seen in The Valley, and kind of a redish orange tint to it's underfur.  I actually googled "Mexican wolf, to see if that's what it was.  Nope, just an odd looking coyote.  #steveemigphotos.

 I know most of the mammals wandering around at night in urban and rural areas.  But a couple of months ago, I saw a creature that had me stumped.  I sleep without a tent at the moment, on a wide stretch of sidewalk.  I woke to a hissing and growling commotion one night, maybe 2:00 or 3:00 am.  In the fast food restaurant patio area, across the street, I saw a coyote pulling on the end of a trash bag.  There were two coyotes that roamed through my area every night or two, and I usually woke up and saw them once every week or two.  They leave me alone, although they'll sniff around, up close, if a wandering tweeker or someone drops some food nearby.  

What freaked me out that night is that the coyote was fighting a huge black cat for the bag of garbage.  Now there's a black cat that lives in a fenced off area nearby, I call her Momma Cat.  She's raised three litters of kittens since I've been in that area, and she's as street smart as feral cats come, and a good mom, hence the name.  But she's large, but a normal sized black cat.  She disappears when the coyotes roll through.  That's part of the reason she lives in a fenced in area, and comes out to hunt or scavenge.  So it wasn't her. 

Opossum I saw in Long Beach last year, wandering out just before dusk.  #steveemigphotos

 There was a bush blocking my view at first, but then the coyote pulled the bag a few feet, with the black cat pulling on the other end.  It was a HUGE black cat.  It was also dark, though there are several street lights, and I'm 55, my eyes aren't as sharp as they once were.  The cat let go of the bag, and I only saw it for a second or two.  It was so fucking big I thought it might be a black leopard at first.  OK, black leopards aren't native to L.A..  But people do keep them as exotic pets, and the L.A  Zoo is only a few miles away.  So that was possible, if not plausible.  

Seeing what might be a black leopard, a cat big enough to fight with a coyote, made me a bit nervous.  Part of homelessness is going to sleep every night knowing there are about 100 realistic ways you could die before morning.  Crazy people make up most of that list, and weather and disease make up a lot more.  But mountain lions, stray dogs, coyotes, a rattlesnake, and a few other animals are on that list.  An escaped black leopard would add to the list of scary and dangerous creatures out there. 

Luckily for me, the cat was still wandering around, and I got another quick glimpse of it.  It looked like a long haired black cat, except it was freakin' huge, like a bit smaller than a bobcat.  So over the next few days, I looked up every wild cat around the world, so see if it was some obscure exotic cat, someone's pet that got loose.  I couldn't find a match.  

It didn't have the ear tufts or face tufts of a bobcat, and it had along tail.  One idea was that Momma cat got knocked up by a local bobcat, producing a huge black cat.  But nope, that didn't seem to be the case. The closest match I could find was an Ocelot for size, and Momma cat for the black color and long fur.  While an ocelot was about the right size, they have tan fur, light color on their undersides, and spots much like a leopard.  My best guess was that someone's pet ocelot got loose, hooked up with Momma cat, and produced a huge black cat.  But that seemed like a really big long shot.In the couple weeks after that first sighting, I saw the huge black cat again, twice.  I named it "Shadow the Mystery Cat."  

One night I went to take a leak in some bushes, and suddenly these two eyes opened a few feet away.  I just saw the reflected disks of the eyeshine, and it was close enough to get a quick, but good, look at it.  Sitting up straight, with that good posture cats are known for, Shadow was at least two feet high.  And it didn't freak when I walked right up to it to take a leak.  It was just a ginormous black, long haired cat, and it acted like a feral cat, even a pet.  As I finished whizzing, it crept off into the shadows and disappeared again.  I saw it one more time after that, walking along the curb for a while, so I had a good view, and a reference for it's size.  Again, it was a black ca, just twice the size a large black cat should be.  

Then, a few days ago, I was watching YouTube videos about animals.  A video about the history of black cats popped up on the side, so I watched it.  It finally occurred to me that there was one thing I never thought to Google, and that was "Huge black cat."  When I did, I found photos of huge house cats, a breed called Maine Coons.  So I googled, "black Maine coon."  And there it was. 

This is exactly what Shadow, the Mystery Cat of the Studio City area, looks like.  I pulled this pic off the web.  Shadow wasn't a wild exotic pet at all, but probably was/is someone's pet Maine Coon that got out and roamed about for a while.  And just how big are black Main Coon cats?  Check out this photo below.

Yeah.  Main Coons are ginormous.  Freakin' huge.  I borrowed this pic from the web, as well.  So when you're out having fun tonight, in the east end of The Valley this Halloween, know that Shadow, the big, black mystery cat is out there, too.  It seems friendly to humans, but will tangle with a coyote.  So if you see Shadow tonight, don't try to pet it, consider yourself lucky to see the biggest, baddest black cat roaming the Los Angeles area.  Happy Halloween.

One more random critter photo I shot while homeless.  This is a vulture, there were a hundred of more of these that would gather along the might James River in Richmond, Virginia, when I was living there.  #steveemigphotos





 

Tuesday, October 26, 2021

Poem: Jezebel

Sunset over Palos Verdes, as seen from the north end of Bolsa Chica state beach, in Huntington Beach, California.  This poem is one I wrote about a punker girl I went out with for a little while, named Roberta, near the end of that relationship.  That was in 1989.  Another kind of sunset.  #steveemigphotos

Jezebel

The words that I want

Well they just aren't around

And I can't look into your eyes

And what we once felt

I don't see anymore

Like a ship when

The fog fills the sky

The moments they come

And the moments they go

But the right moment

Just won't come 'round

I can't go on feeling

Just how I do

But I can't risk 

leaving you down

You're all that I wanted 

Before I knew what I had

And without you

I'd never have known it

You captured what little love

I had inside

Even though I

May not have shown it

So here we are now

In the dark and the grey

Two row boats adrift

In the mist

Maybe our paths

They will cross once again

If not this world

Then in the next 

-The White Bear

 

Poem: AirFireEarthWater

A trail to be followed for those who find it.  Newport Beach Art Park, Newport Beach, California.  #steveemigphotos

AirFireEarthWater

A FEW there be 

That find the path

A FEW there be

That hear the call

A FEW there be

That wake up to

The mystery and wonder

Of it all

-The White Bear


 

Poems: "Play" and "Wondering" haiku


 My personal favorite of all the150+  #sharpiescribblestyle drawings I've done, "Tainted Love" featuring Harley Quinn and The Joker.  I had to sell this one cheap in Richmond, Virginia, to get a motel room, after a 7 night hospital stay because they gave me a drug I was allergic to by accident.  

Play

The world's a stage

Just grand in scale

Drama erupts

Through our travails

It's one great play

Go find your part

Some day you'll realize

The world is art

-The White Bear


"Wondering" haiku

In the grass I lie

Gazing at the blue heavens

I lie wondering

-Steve Emig (me) 

written at age 9

I wrote this for 4th grade when my family lived in a big farmhouse outside of Shiloh, Ohio.  We didn't work the farm, we just rented the house from the farmer who did, though we had to help herd the cows back into the pasture once in a while when they got out.  Since we moved nearly every year, I changed a word or two, and used this same haiku in English class nearly every year up into high school.

Monday, October 18, 2021

Daniel Radcliffe interviews Jo Rowling about the Harry Potter series- an author's view of making movies from the most popular children's books of our time


This interview/conversation between Daniel Radcliffe (Harry Potter in the movies) and Jo ("J.K.") Rowling (author of the Harry Potter books), was shot near the end of the filming of the last Harry Potter movie, Deathly Hallows, part 2.  That came out in 2011, so this interview/conversation probably took place in 2010.  

While I'm a writer, I'm primarily an 1980' zine publisher turned prolific blogger, who has written for  a few magazines in the 80's and 90's.  I've never written much fiction, and never had any published.  But 2,400+ blog posts into my writing life, I've simply done a lot of one form of writing.  Most of the time I was focused on the weird little BMX bike world that was my life for 20 years.  But over the last 2-3 years, I've been watching videos of other writers more, just learning more about the various aspects of writing itself, and particularly how novelists think, an go about their work.

I'm not a huge Harry Potter fan, by Potter standards.  I read the first book a couple of years ago, and I loved the series of movies.  For some reason though, Jo Rowling, aka "J.K." is one of the novelists I most like to listen to about writing itself.  Her story is fascinating, that's one part of it.  But more than anything, she just talks real openly about the writing process in interviews.  Her thoughts on creating the amazing Harry Potter/Hogwarts world, the logic of the books, and on the various characters, are things I love to watch.  

One thing about this conversation/interview, is how both Jo and Daniel talk about how real the characters become to them, as a writer and as an actor.  Many years ago, I read a really obscure book about a Tibetan mystic concept called tulpas.  Supposedly Tibetan mystics, for some reason, would visualize characters that would ultimately become real people, or semi-real, anyhow.  I'm not buying that.  But the book I read was really interesting, and the writer compared the Tibetan tulpas to Superman, and other comic heroes that were ingrained in the public consciousness.  

When I read that book, one of the Star Wars movies had just come out, and I thought about how "real" Yoda, for example had become to millions of people.  While Yoda is a 2 1/2 foot tall muppet with great wisdom written by George Lucas, and who "acts" thanks to amazing special effects, the result is a character that feels nearly real to a lot of people.  I remember being out riding bikes with years ago, and we'd yell Yoda quotes to a friend, "Do or do not, there is no try."  Yoda's sayings, as a character, were as real to us as something a real person might have said. 

The way Daniel and Jo talk about the characters reminds me of that tulpa idea.  A writer thinks up these completely fictional characters, and they take on a life of their own, in a sense.  When a writer works with these characters for months or years, they begin to feel pretty real.  The fictional characters are nearly as close as real people, to the writer, as she's writing them. If the novel gets really popular, like the Harry Potter books have, those characters live in many people's minds, they take on a type of realness, to large numbers of people, and ultimately influence society in some sense.  There can be a type of reality to purely fictional characters, like the Tibetan tulpas.  

All Tibetan talk aside, this is a great conversation between two people, talking about a series of stories, that most of us know fairly well.  It's a great watch/listen as a writer. 

 

Saturday, October 9, 2021

The Spawn of Todd McFarlane: How he created a new superhero, a new comic imprint, and a new toy company


While I'm not a huge comic book fan, I have read a few of the classic graphic novels, Like Watchman, V for Vendetta, Sandman, and a series called Seekers into the Mystery, along with issues of several other 90's comics. I first checked out Spawn in the mid 90's a few times.  As a writer and artist, Todd's story is far more fascinating to me.  This 45 minute interview gives a great look at how Todd McFarlane went from a wannabe comic artist, to building an empire in comics and toys.  

As I'll mention over and over in this blog, I came from the early days of BMX freestyle, when it was just turning into a actual sport in the mid-1980's.  My first creative work was a zine.  BMX, skateboarding, and other 1980's action sports, were entrenched with the DIY- Do It Yourself- mantra of hardcore punk rock.  So I've always been a fan of self-publishing, when others aren't interested in publishing you.

Todd McFarlane is probably the best example of that spirit in the comic world.  In his 20's, he worked his way into Marvel as an artist, and eventually drew issues of classic characters like Spiderman and Batman.  But the time came to go out on his own, with a few other artists, they formed Image Comics.  There Todd brought a teenage idea, a character named Spawn, to life. With his own company, and full creative control, Spawn went on to outsell the classic characters issues he had worked on earlier.  He later took Spawn to Hollywood, for a couple of series.  When he couldn't find the right partner to make toys for Spawn and other Image characters, he started his own toy company.  Todd's continued work of breaking new ground usually started with a simple question, "Can we make this look cooler?" 

Friday, October 8, 2021

Why do you write?


In 1985, I bought an old, Royal, manual typewriter, much like the one in this video, for $15 at the San Jose Swap Meet.  I had just moved there from Boise, Idaho, and the weird, new little sport of BMX freestyle was my life.  I used that typewriter to start a zine about BMX freestyle, as a way to meet the other riders in the Bay Area.  That was the start of my writing "career."  In less than a year my zine landed me a magazine job in Southern California.  I had no idea that would happen, and it definitely wasn't my goal.  But that zine, San Jose Stylin', changed the entire course of my life.

Why do you write?  Do you just have something to say to the world?  Do you want to be a bestselling author or novelist some day?  Do you want to write a script for Hollywood and win an Oscar?  Do you want to become a famous writer?  Do you just want to be a "working writer?"  Do you think being a writer will get you laid?  Do you just love torture?  Do you want to make a fortune writing stuff that impresses that asshole professor in college who told you that you didn't have what it takes to "make it" was a professional writer?  Or do you see yourself as a conduit of information from some unknown source that needs to come into our physical world as books, movies or some other written form?  Or are you someone who has been writing for years, and you're just going to keep doing it, money or no money involved, because it's who you are?

There are a lot of reasons to want to write.  If money, fame and glory are your main reasons, you probably won't stick with it long enough to find any of those.  But if you have something to say to the world, or you keep coming up with ideas that seem like they should be part of a book or movie, you may be in it for the long haul.  

I started a zine when I'd only heard of them in a FREESTYLIN' (BMX) magazine article.  I'd never seen an actual zine.  I wanted an excuse to meet the pro BMX freestylers of the San Francisco Bay Area.  BMX freestyle, which was largely unknown to normal people in 1985, was my life.  I was 19-years-old, and couldn't afford to go to college.  I didn't really have a drive towards anything that needed a degree, so I worked at a Pizza Hut, and spent nights creating a really ugly, but pretty solid zine.  Less than a year later, FREESTYLIN' magazine (and sister mag BMX Action) offered me a job.  I didn't consider myself a writer then, I wanted to be a pro rider, a BMX freestyler, not a writer.  I didn't really click with the staff there, and got laid off after a few months (and replaced by 18-year-oldBMX/skater kid Spike Jonze).  

My next job was a year as writer/editor/photographer for a BMX freestyle newsletter.  Near the end of that, I was beginning to enjoy writing, and starting to feel like a "writer."  In the 33 years since, I've only been paid to write for two months, another short-lived BMX magazine, in 1998.  But I've written and published 40+ zines, including three of poetry.  And since 2008, I've tried 25-35 blog ideas, and written well over 2,400 blog posts.  I did that for free, writing things I, personally, wanted to write about.  Those posts pulled in over 435,000 total page views, so much of what I've written has actually been read by some people.  Along the way, over 36 years, I've become much more aware of my creative process, how I work, and how I write. 

I don't get writer's block really.  On the contrary, I'm usually exploding with far more ideas than I can sit down and write.  If I don't have a ready idea for one blog or piece, I usually have an idea for another, so I'll work on that.  Part of our influence in the 1980's BMX freestyle scene was punk rock, with it's DIY (Do It Yourself) attitude.  So self-publishing, in zines, blogs, and one ebook, made sense to me.  I've never given myself one rejection letter.  I've never really tried to get a book published by a traditional publisher, I cranked out one ebook last year, and sold a few copies.  Most of my blogging, since 2008, has been about my life in the early days of 1980's BMX freestyle.  I became an industry guy, a video producer, and knew all the pros and industry people of the first wave of what is now a worldwide sport.  So I had a lot of weird, little insider stories from that world.

Over the 36 years I've been writing pretty consistently, my reasons for writing have changed.  I consume a lot of information, and then think about it, like most avid readers do.  There came a point where I realized I needed to write my thoughts on different subjects, to let what I've learned flow back out into the world.  If I just read, I would be like a big lake with a river flowing into it, just filling up more and more and more.  But to really flow, like life itself, I needed to let my thoughts flow back out of the lake, producing my own river of content.  I'm not saying that's a good metaphor for everyone, but it works for me.  I write a lot more than I read these days, but I spent the 1990's and 2000's reading 250 or 300 books, and listening to 150 more on audiotape.  

I write because, as an organism, I get curious, I read and learn, and then think about what I've learned.  Then I pretty much NEED to write something, to put my take on that subject back out into the world.  That's what works for me, and why I will self-publish in blogs or zines, even with no money coming back, much of the time.  

That said, I've been struggling with homelessness, in and out of it, since I became a taxi driver in 1999, and I need to start making a decent living again.  I plan to do that primarily by writing, and with the unique Sharpie marker art I do, (#sharpiescribblestyle) as another creative outlet. So that's why I write.  I'm just geared to take in info, ponder about it, and write my take on this subject or that one, mostly with non-fiction, but now with some fiction as well.

So I'll ask again, why to you write?  When you find the deep reason for it, a lot of daily writing issues seem to fade away, at least to some degree.  When you figure out your own process, and work with it, a lot of the torture aspect goes away as well, at least in my experience. 


The Gift of Inspiration

"Art is not what you see, it's what you make others see." -Edgar Degas  This story was written yesterday.  I am a homeless ma...